Saturday, November 16, 2013

Update

Well, I am feeling better.  I am sure seeing Prof would still bring tears, I think I am ok for now. I've been watching the delicate balancing act between Mr Atheist and the Griffin and I am glad Prof decided to break it off as he did. They waffle back and forth between affectionate friendship and their old "together" behavior. I, honestly couldn't speculate on how this will go south but go south it will.

As for the Jedi, he has finally found, THE ONE, and is therefore now ready to grow up. He has worked at least one day this week. I hope he will get in the habit of more than sporadic work, his new girl has a lot on his list.

Mad Sci is wonderful and supportive, as is his way. Winter's lower work load and reduced pay, coupled with a sudden change in my student loan payment have financially shaken us but we aren't going down.

I've come to the conclusion that it is time to get back to work on myself. As for my prospect, who has not yet earned a name for the blog, I am really thinking, for the first time, that I just want friends for a while rather than playmates. Another side effect of examining my behavior in this last relationship, I suppose. Or maybe it's that I follow my rules and don't really engage while coping with loss. We rarely talk. I see him briefly once a week, with little in the way of real communication, more sort of interest.

I am not so interested in chasing down a man's ego at this point so it's not really moving very quickly.

My friend, Lumberjack is having problems with getting scammed because of desperate loneliness. I have been trying to encourage him to change his approach. From online, late night chatting to actually taking a day off and doing something social he enjoys. He and his boys will be up for Thanksgiving.

We don't usually go to a lot of trouble for this one since we do Maybon as an FOC. But Mad Sci's folks are here and I have a couple of siblings here so we usually treat it as a family of source day. Griffin had to make a turkey and so we are hosting.

I am looking forward to the change in our family holidays this year. I have friends and family here we don't always have, and even though we will feel the loss of Prof, he will be  in our hearts.